When I was younger, I had an idea of how I wanted my life to turn out. I wanted to have a career that I love, a lively social life, and a long term relationship by the time I turned 30.
Well, let me tell you that my life hasn’t turned out that way. I’m now 29. I’m not in a relationship, I have a job but not a career for me and a social life that can be mediocre at times.
What makes things worse is scrolling through social media and see the people you went to school or uni hitting all the milestones you’ve dreamed about. You see it all there, in front of you- first boy you ever kissed is celebrating his child's first birthday, someone you used to get drunk with at house parties got an impressive promotion and your ex-best friend buying their first home and getting engaged within a week.
At first, when I saw all these milestones, I was happy for them! Of course, everyone deserves to get what they want. But it wasn’t until the happiness wore off, that the jealousy started to sink in. I started to see these posts through the green-eyed monster. I couldn’t stop quoting Violet from Willy Wonka, “I want it NOW!”.
Don’t get us wrong, I know it’s easy to be critical of your own life. I’m old enough to know that everyone just put the good parts of their lives on Facebook, Instagram or whatever app that's popular. But It doesn’t make things easier when it’s usual Friday night scrolling sesh, and the most productive thing you’ve done is learnt how to drink lying down.
This is something I’m insecure about. I feel like a failure. I feel like I’m failing. It’s easy to bend the truth about your life when you’re with your close friends so you don’t feel like the odd one out. So I’m being honest with myself and hopefully reach someone who feels the same way as I do.
So repeat after me...
We are not failures, and we’re not alone in feeling this way.
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